I'll explain my reasons for leaving before any of you start thinking things that aren't real.I admit that I have been depressing for the most part of my stay here.Heck, I even lashed out at the board a while back (leading to Weasel getting pissed at me ).I have tried to apologise for it, but it seems that some members wouldn't accept it.I have even tried keeping my depression away from the board, or at least appearing to be a much happier person; but it isn't easy when you know that you're not forgiven for your own stupid actions.I must say, being ignored by certain members doesn't really help lift my spirits either(yeah, I've heard that 'busy' explanation countless times; you don't have give me that excuse anymore, neither do you need to tell me anymore lies)
I'm sorry that I'm not good at words; I believe that most of my posts have been misunderstood by others, leading to me being hated by them.Posting here used to be fun when Flagg, Drakron and Chrissy were around(don't get me wrong; I still enjoy the company of many others like T'lainya,Waverly, Ubik, Gruntboy, Xandax, C Elegans,Vehemence,vixen; the list goes on ), but I feel guilty everytime I log on because I know that the people whom I have offended in the past, would not even accept my apology.
As some of you may know, I'm sitting for the biggest examination of my life at the end of this year, and being depressed is distracting me from my studies.So, to prevent myself from getting even more depressed, and to prevent everyone else from getting depressed because of me, I bid you all farewell.I no longer care wether you wish to side with Weasel or me, since IMHO, I was never at war with him.If any of you wish to misinterpret my reasons for leaving the board, fine, go ahead, live in your little fantasy world.As far as I'm concern, I'm doing this for the best interest of everybody.I have tried my best at being accepted by everyone, but,it seems that my best isn't enough.
To Mr. Weasel, I have sent you both a public and a personal apology, as well as publicly stating that I've made the biggest mistake of my life by making that statement a few weeks ago.You could have replied to my PM with whatever you wanted to say, but no, you had to go and involve everyone else with your comment in the other thread.I hope that you're finally laughing, dear sir, because I am; not at you, but at my own stupidity for thinking that you are an understanding person.I care not if you and your supporters make me look as bad as baaasie to all the new posters here.I hope that you'll have fun at being childish.I have said all that I have wanted to say; I will still respect you even if you did so.
Lastly, I would like to say a big thank you to everyone who has treated me like a friend and made my stay enjoyable here.I feel sad to have to leave you all, but this is for the best (hopefully
).I am sorry for all the mistakes that I've ever done to you, and I wish you all the best in life.If you ever need anything from me, I'll still be checking my PM once in awhile.
I bid you all farewell
[ 07-30-2001: Message edited by: Brink ]