... And the zeal I had is gone ...

[Kipi]

The fire in my heart is dying
and the zeal I had is gone

This path that I've chosen's a rocky one
Long, hard and frozen it has become
Each turn that I've taken on the way
has only led me back to Hell
I am dying down growing weaker now
It could seem that I'm doing fine
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside

So sang Sentenced in their song "Broken". By these words, I'm trying to say you all that I'm going to be inactive for undetermined time.

First question you may think to ask is "Why?". There are several reasons, most of them personal ones. First reason, which may be understood the title of this thread is, my passion to post here has gone. You have nothing to do with this, I just feel that I have contributed everything I can to this place. As the only section outside of SYM I have been posting has been Fallout section, and as that section has become really quiet lately, most of all if not every new thread made there has in my part been pointing to old threads, there has been nothing to me to offer there.

Second reason to my coming inactivity can be found in the fact that I've quited both drinking and smoking. As this has made me rather bitter during last week or so, I see no reasons to you be burned by that. This is what the quote at the beginning of the thread is meaning. "It could seem that I'm doing fine / but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside" sums up it completely. Also, as my personal life is rather mess at the moment in other reasons as well, that quote fits in my mood very well.

This post also explains why have lately turned myself to invisible mode.

So, for undetermined time, I'm not going to post here at the GB regulary, if at all. Though I'm still going to check the site, basically for news and questions to Fallout section. Probably won't post either one, though, as especially in case of Fallout, I've noticed that that section is in capable hands. There are lot of members there who knows as much as I do, and usually can offer the help more quickly than I. This inactivity may last weeks, months, in worst case even year or more. I'm just not sure when I get the passion to post here back.

Before I go, I have to say that the community here in GameBanshee is good, friendly, actually the best in any forums I have been posting. There could have nothing of none of you could have done to prevent this, my friends.

I wish you all good luck in future, and I hope I one day, and even soon, will post here again.

I'll leave you all with the following quote from song made by Nightwish, which has had special meaning for me very long time. The song is "Dead Boy's Poem"

"If you read this line, remember not the hand that wrote it
Remember only the verse, songmaker's cry the one without tears
For I've given this its strength and it has become my only strength.
Comforting home, mother's lap, chance for immortality
where being wanted became a thrill I never knew
The sweet piano writing down my life"

"Teach me passion for I fear it's gone
Show me love, hold the lorn
So much more I wanted to give to the ones who love me
I'm sorry
Time will tell (this bitter farewell)
I live no more to shame nor me nor you
And you... I wish I didn't feel for you anymore..."

[Sinister]

Yeah, this forum has been lacking in spunk recently.

[Maharlika]

Originally Posted by Sinister

Yeah, this forum has been lacking in spunk recently.

And what's that suppose to mean? You speak like you've been here before...

@Kipi: Hey mate, sorry you felt that way. Regardless, all the best!

[Sinister]

Originally Posted by Maharlika

And what's that suppose to mean? You speak like you've been here before...

*sigh*
I started checking out this forum long before I registered.

Are you having problems with people making alternate accounts?

[Ode to a Grasshopper]

Hope not, I've got three, albeit two inaccessible . If that's a real hassle then I wants to be Odie again.

Ciao Kip.

[Maharlika]

Originally Posted by Sinister

*sigh*
I started checking out this forum long before I registered.

Are you having problems with people making alternate accounts?

Of course I do.

I'm a moderator and it's against forum rules.

@Odie: maybe buck or the supermods can do something about it?

[Sinister]

Originally Posted by Maharlika

Of course I do.

I'm a moderator and it's against forum rules.

I meant if this problem is present at this forum.

[Ode to a Grasshopper]

It hasn't caused any problems AFAIK and I don't have any particular problem with using this one, but if it's a hassle for anyone/people are concerned about 'the rules' then it would be nicer to go under the original username (and get my RT sig back...).
I assume my style's distinctive enough I wouldn't have to sit an 'Odie test'...

[Maharlika]

Originally Posted by Sinister

I meant if this problem is present at this forum.

Not really. Not unless you know something that I don't know.

@Odie: Shut up, mate. Everybody knows that your reason is valid.

[Sinister]

Originally Posted by Maharlika

Not really. Not unless you know something that I don't know.

Why would I ask if I know?

[Avane]

Kipi

You were the very first person to help me when I joined GB. I was playing Fallout 2 and couldn't get Mr Wright's sons to speak to me. You were really helpful and I will always be thankful for your help.

Take care and maybe see you back here or on another forum.

[Ode to a Grasshopper]

Originally Posted by Maharlika

@Odie: Shut up, mate. Everybody knows that your reason is valid.

Screw you, hippie! The 'not really' bit was addressed to you, oh Mod of my heart, rather than Sinister who posted during my reply.
'Sides, "I drink/smoke too much and keep forgetting my password", while valid, doesn't strike me as a particularly good reason...

[Xandax]

Originally Posted by Mr Spanky

Hope not, I've got three, albeit two inaccessible . If that's a real hassle then I wants to be Odie again.

Ciao Kip.

PM BuckGB, I'm sure he can help you if you say pretty please.
The SuperMods can't I'm afraid ..... we can't really alter much about a persons profile other then smack them around a bit.



@Kipi: Take care, and come back when you want to. People come and go from all forums on the web, so just take it easy and if the "urge" reappears - then I'm sure "we" are here for you again

[fable]

Kipi--sorry to hear how you perceive things now, but just remember: it's only a perception. Your presence has always been welcome here, and adds much simply on its own. And you'll always be welcome here, as well. Take care.

[The Z]

All the best to you Kipi!