[VonDondu]

Zelgadis, I don't think you should worry about HOW you proposed. It doesn't matter what WE think. You did it and it's done. The important thing is that you asked her to marry you, and the most important question is whether she wants to marry you.

You're in a very strange situation. You and she have very poor communication and very little control over when you get to see each other. What do you expect your marriage proposal, or marriage itself, to accomplish? In other words, what are you expecting? If she said yes to your proposal, would your relationship with her improve?

I'm going out on a limb here, but it sounds to me like you don't have a strong hold on her, and asking her to marry you is a way for you to get a stronger hold on her. Don't get me wrong--I sympathize with your desire to have more control over the situation and with your desire to form a stronger bond with the most important woman in your life. Whether you are successful depends on whether she wants to marry you.

I think you deserve an answer to your proposal, and I'm afraid she's been blowing you off. It started with that little laugh of hers. She might have thought your proposal was absurd but didn't have the heart to tell you that marriage wasn't a good idea. Maybe she's hoping that you'll forget about it if she doesn't answer you. But you were serious, and you need an answer from her as soon as possible, so you should ask her for one. She has had more than enough time to think about it.

Good luck!